In my devotion this morning, I saw God's answer to your prayers. (Thanks to all of you).
In an article by Jane Struck I totally related to her statement that for years I have been blinded by the belief that I'm not as worthy of God's love as other Christians are.
A lot of this has to do with past treatment by other "Christian" people.
I have finally had to admit to myself that I have an unhealthy addiction. Food. I am an overweight person and have felt or been made to feel less than loveable because of the way I look. Discriminated against even. And I have been harboring bitterness in my heart because of this. So, food had become my comfort and now my body shows it. (Some of my problem is a chronic health issue that I can do nothing about). But the part I can try to do something about, I didn't, because I just didn't believe it would make any difference. I, too, believed if I was nice enough, people would love me and see past the ugly exterior of my body. But, and this is unfortunate, not many people can see past it, not even some of my family. Which in turn, created a need for some comfort, which I seek in food. Not pretty, is it? But there it is. My truth revealed for all the world to see.
In her article, Jane writes that God loves me (John 3:16), rejoices over me (Zephaniah 3:17), died for me (Romans 5:8), and will never leave or forsake me. God loves me when I'm nice, and when I'm not. He loves me even when others don't or when I don't love myself.
She also writes that I may never be a beautiful, popular, recognizable, and successful woman in this world, but wordly labels, accolades, recognition, and accomplishment hold no sway over God's irrational love for me.
Like Jane, I have been beholden to the deception that others are more special than I am for way too long. Please pray that I will remember that we're all equals at the Cross.
Thanks for hanging in there for this wordy post. I hope that God will speak to you through Jane's article as he did to me.
Blessings to all.