It's Sunday morning and a time for worship and relaxation and to reflect on a week that God has given us. I need to learn to do this whole heartedly. But.....
I get so caught up in "troubles" during the week that I am often guilty of not seeking His favor or advice. So caught up in getting my human feelings out of the way that I don't see the lessons that He is trying to teach me or those around me.
I am a grown woman and should act like one. Sometimes I don't. I have a hard time corralling this sharp tongue that I have. My DH is often the recipient of my lashing out about something I feel is unjust or just plain mean.
This weekend, our town's high school football team won a game and a spot in the first round of playoffs. YAY for them. We all had a great time at the football game. It was especially cool because my SIL and BIL and their kids were able to make the 2nd half of the game. (This gives me something really cool to look forward to next year when they are finally here).
My DH's cousins have lived here all along and their children are quite close to each other. So the two little girls plan to sleepover at one house and they plan it right in front of my daughter. And they don't include her. She wants to be with them and play and have sleepovers as well, but time and time again, they plan things and don't include her. Now, if you don't like me, that's fine. I could care less, but when you make my 6 year old cry because you don't include her, it ruffles my mother feathers. This is not the first time they have done this. And one little one in particular seems to take great pains to make sure my daughter knows that she is not included. Like, we are going to go do so and so and you're not going. That makes me so angry I can hardly see straight. So, what am I supposed to do? We told our daughter that she should not rely on them to be her friends. That she is a beautiful outgoing girl with lots of friendship to offer to folks who want to be her friend. And she can stand on her own. She doesn't need anyone to help her or stand up with her. She is stronger than both of them put together. But it still makes me mad when it makes her cry.
Okay all you veteran mommies out there. Give me some advice. I need it. Pray for me to find forgiveness for these people in my heart so it doesn't demolish the family feeling on this farm.